I think it has finally and truly hit me….Ryley starts Kindergarten in a week. ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still remember my first day of school (which was 32 years ago…you do the math!), how can my baby be starting school? How is it that MY child is beginning the long, educational journey? Next Monday will be the first of so many days spent at school……I can’t help but wonder how he will feel about school as the time passes.
The school posted the class lists this morning. It was first on my agenda after dropping Ryley and Grace off at preschool. Ethan and I headed to the school on our week. Ethan, ever the reluctant participant in my workouts, kept asking “why we here, Momma?” as we approached the school. From a distance, I could see all the colorful 8 1/2 x 11 papers up in the windows of the administrative building. My heart started to pound (no, not just from the fast walking!)……those papers held the answers…Would he be a.m. or p.m. Kindergarten? Who would the wonderful person be who would introduce my son to the world of learning in elementary school? This paper with a list of names on it was the first step in this part of Ryley’s life. And then we were there, standing at the windows, looking for Ryley’s name. It was on the first list I looked at…..A.M. kindergarten in Room #3. And we saw who his teacher will be. Yay for a.m. Kindergarten!!!!! A month ago, we received a notice that he would be “late” K, starting at 11am, which really would have destroyed Ethan’s nap in the afternoon. I was hoping for the switch to the mornings, as we’d requested, but at the same time, was adjusting my thoughts to just dealing with the later schedule. But here we are….a.m. K!!!
And then I have thoughts, much like Melissa did, about this woman who will have my son in her class for 3 1/2 hours a day, five days a week. Will she see the special person I see? Will she understand his little quirks? Will she be patient with him? Will she be able to open up windows and doors we’ve only approached thus far? Will she love and care about my son? I suppose only time will tell. I do plan on being an involved parent. I’ve already talked to our previous daycare about taking Ethan a morning here and there so I can be in Ryley’s classroom when/if needed to help out. I have been dreaming about that for years, and especially in the few months since quitting my job.
I am excited about this new adventure. I am terrified and sad as well. Still waiting on that shoe to drop, still praying that it doesn’t. What does school hold for my tiny baby boy? What will these years bring? So many questions. I know Monday will be hard. Heck, I cried my eyes out when I handed in his paperwork for Kindergarten. I can’t imagine what it’s going to be like when I let go of his hand and watch him walk through that door into a new world. Good grief…I’m crying already and it’s a week away!
With that in mind, remember that our (Back) To School chat is this Thursday, 3:30pm EST. Hope to see you there! Bring the tissues, bring your ideas, your thoughts, and encouragements.